The last time I saw my RE was almost a year ago. I went to have my first
annual post baby and get script for regular BCP since we were done
BFing. My ovaries were cyst free and they said my ute looked great.
We had originally planned to try again this spring, but I broke my knee
at the end of January and my leg has been shit ever since. I've always
had chronic joint problems (skeletal, joint, and bone problems run in my
family, one of my many genetic gifts) but this latest injury was the
clincher for my left knee. Basically, I've known since HS that my knee
caps are loose and don't track anywhere near where they should, and this
causes them to slide out from side to side. Sometimes it's excruciating
and sometimes it's just kinda annoying, but every time it happens it
either breaks or wears down the cartilage in the joint. Nothing ever
happens when the joint is engaged (when my knees are bent) but when my
quads are relaxed and I'm doing something completely mundane, like
turning to sit down. This last time I was in line at a ski lift and
turned to talk to a friend, popped the damn thing out both to the left
and the right and managed to chip off most of the cartilage I had left
and then some bone. BTW this all happened on the first day of my
vacation. Literally adding insult to injury. >:(
So I had an MRI, flew home in my leg immobilizer, and had arthroscopic
surgery to get all the pieces out. Unfortunately my quad completely shut
down during that week. My surgeon said it's not uncommon, every time I
moved it I was pushing my knee cap back out and causing more pain, so my
brain had pretty much shut off that muscle. That meant recovery was a
bitch and a half because when you don't use them even for a little
while, muscles atrophy. I was pretty much in bed for a full month, and
my mom, ILs, and sister took turns staying and helping take care of E
for almost 6 weeks. There is reconstructive surgery to fix the chronic
issues in my knees, but the success rate isn't that great and it's just a
stop gap before they replace the whole thing. Anyway, I'm not where I
was before, but I'm finally comfortable with the idea of being pregnant
again.
I put a call in to my trusty doctor and started Met in June, first cycle
off BCP was July 13th. I'm charting of course, using OPKs, and
supplementing with vitex like I did last time. PCOS wise I feel I'm
doing pretty well, I can still ovulate without clomid (YAY!) and this
cycle was actually 9 days shorter than my average (sweet). My LP was a
couple days shorter than usual, but I'm not going to worry about it yet.
Weight is still a big concern for me with a second pregnancy. Last time
by the day I delivered I was up 50 pounds. Most of that was my own
fault, and then starting around 35 weeks my BP started to go up and I
started to gain a lot of water weight. Like 3 or 4 pounds a week. Then I
had a c-section and learned the true meaning of swelling. Dear God in
heaven. Anyway, I'm actually a few pounds lighter than I was when I got
pregnant with E, but I look completely different. My stomach still has
that postpartum pouch so many of us get and can't seem to shake. I'm at
peace with it for now though, my biggest concern is not to repeat the
same mistakes as last time not just to be cute, but so my gimpy leg can
stand a chance under all that pressure.
For now we're just taking it one day at a time and one cycle at a time.
My doctor is cool with us doing our own thing, but wants to see me if
I'm not KU after 3 cycles to do another cyst check. I'm feeling confident, which is still weird for me when it comes to this stuff. Here's hoping my
next call to the office will be to announce my BFP!
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