Reasons I hate PCOS

1) The obvious, "you're infertile" thing.

2) The ridiculous symptoms that are permeating every aspect of my life other than TTC. The ridiculously disgusting relentless acne that I cannot get rid off, the mustache I've had to diligently wax for the past 2 months, the weight fluctuations, the damaging effects of certain foods on both my waistline and my mood. And the latest 2 symptoms to pop up, my hair is starting to fall out and my skin is starting to get those lovely dry patches. I am so sexy, I can barely stand it.

3) The way my friends and family don't really know what to say if I talk to them about it, because they don't understand that it's not just about getting KU. I mean I can talk about zits in weird places and the fact that I have facial hair like a man with my BFF's, but it's not anyone's favorite topic of conversation.

4) When people say things like, "Well at least you caught it early," "You weren't even trying to get pregnant yet were you?" "Don't worry, with all the new medical technology out there you'll still be able to have kids." And my all time fave, "So, you just can't get pregnant? That's it? Oh, that's not so bad, I wish I had that, you'll save so much on BC!" (Yeh, um, right, that's why I shell out $35 a month for it. And yes, I agree, I wish you had this instead of me, you cow.) I know they think they are being comforting, (most of them) but they have no idea how angry all of these statements make me.

5) I'm fucking sick of looking like a sickly, bloated greasy slob. I have symptoms that keep getting worse and nothing seems to be working. It's really starting to affect my confidence, this is not who I am or even who I was 6 months ago, and it's very frustrating.

6) I'm avoiding people because I look and feel like shit, and explaining what is wrong does not help, see reason #4. Don't feel left out e-friends, I've been avoiding everyone, even on the phone. This long weekend I actually played an Xbox game from start to finish rather than talk to anyone. Obviously DH and I didn't have the most romantic V-day. I really am turning into a nerdy teenage boy, minus the sex drive.